Wednesday, 28 February 2018

Totally Clueless OOTD

With this outfit, I definitely wouldn't look out of place in a 90's chick flick and as the 90's is one of my favourite decades (partly because I was born in it) I absolutely love the outfit. Although it's simply put together I just love how the pink of the Miss Selfridge top pops against the black and white checked Primark skirt. The top is so cutesy, with the frilly sleeves and tied detail at the front. When paired with something slightly more low waisted the top is cropped. The skirt was also a bargain for only £4. Like the skirt, the boots were from Primark and I am so obsessed with them, at first look, they are plain black but the heel is a mirrored gold. As the weather is still very cold I threw on a leather jacket to add a bit of edge to the outfit as full girly is really not my vibe. 


Sunday, 25 February 2018

My Make up Essentials

We all have those makeup products that we just could not live without and no matter how many new products we try they always manage to sneak their way back into our makeup bags as we reach for them every day. So I thought I would share my holy grails, ride or die, favourite products as I'm sure you will fall for them just like me. 

Real Techniques Buffing Brush- I feel like in posts like this the tools always get forgotten about but I find no matter how good the product is if the brush is rubbish you're gonna get rubbish results. So I absolutely swear by this brush as it just seems to buff the foundation in with next to no effort and is super soft and never sheds any of its hairs because is there anything worse than that!?

Zoeva Deluxe Luxe Crease Brush - Staying with brushes this is hands down my favourite eye brush, some days I can use this on its own and create a lovely eye look. It's quite a large eye brush so the shadows can easily be blended out creating any look from subtle to dark and also lovely and smokey which I love. 

Collection Lasting Perfection Concealer - Now this probably comes as no surprise as like many this is my go-to concealer, sometimes I wonder how it's so good as its rare there's a product that suits virtually anyone especially, with the new shades. I find it highlights under the eye and conceals those pesky blemishes. It also as the name says, lasts a very long time so I rarely have to touch up through the day.

Benefit Hoola Bronzer - Another product that is definitely a cult product. Its the perfect shade for a subtle bronze but can also easily be built up to contour. Also, I love the brush that comes with it which I was so surprised about as usually, the brush included in products is terrible. I also find it has a great durability.

Collection Fast Stroke Eyeliner - This product is a mere £2.99 and hands down the best eyeliner. The last one I had dried up after using it day in day out and then for some reason I stopped wearing winged liner completely but I have refound my love for it and as soon as I repurchased this and used it I realised why I loved it so much. I find it super easy to apply, it's completely black unlike some cheaper eyeliners (or even high end) which come out slightly grey. And lasts all day even with my super watery eyes. 

MAC Mehr - If you see me wearing a nude. This is most likely it. I love it! It's a matt formula so lasts for a long time but isn't drying whilst the colour is pink with brown undertones. Even though I have noticed the love for MAC lipsticks isn't as much as it was two or three years ago this still holds a very secure place in my makeup bag. 

What are your makeup essentials?


Saturday, 24 February 2018

My Everyday Makeup Routine

Products I Used:

Collection Lasting Perfection Concealer - Green 
L'Oreal True Match Foundation
Collection Lasting Perfection concealer - Fair
L'Oreal True Match Powder 
Benefit Hoola Bronzer
Too Faced Natural Matte Eyeshadow Palette
Collection Fast Stroke Eyeliner
Maybelline Lash Sensational Mascara 
Urban Decay Naked Liquid Lipstick - Naked 


Friday, 23 February 2018

Learning to Drive - My Experience

I passed my driving test!!!

But let's just say my experience learning to drive wasn't the easiest.

I began learning to drive the first weekend after my 17th birthday - 1 year 6 months ago (just so you understand the timeline of the post). My mom and dad surprised me with my first lesson as I had always said I would love to drive but I was extremely nervous so very happy that my parents only told me about two hours prior to my first lesson. I loved my first lesson, it was very basic in the sense of he drove me to a car park I drove forwards a bit and turned around but he said I was picking it up quickly. I came home very pleased and had booked my next ten lessons. Two lessons in I was still going round and round a car park and me being me was getting very frustrated the lessons weren't 
moving on quickly as I loved driving and was quite confident behind the wheel. I started to think about what to do to encourage the lessons forward without appearing rude to the instructor as of course, he was in charge but I was paying £25 an hour and wanted my money's worth as that's definitely not cheap. I then broke my toe and could hardly walk nor wear shoes for a while so this, of course, put a halt to my lessons. At this point, I also struggled with high anxiety (see my anxiety story HERE) and I suddenly didn't enjoy my lessons for  number of reasons including the pace of the lessons, not connecting with the instructor and the price which meant I didn't want to endure them in a time I was overly sensitive. 

So I moved on to a second instructor, my mom, one of my bestest friends, her boyfriend and a couple of other people I knew had or currently used him so I thought it was a great option. I stuck with him for a very long time August 2016 - May 2017 including two tests which now I look back and think was a very long time. A very long time as every lesson he would turn up either 30 minutes earlier or 30 minutes to an hour late as if I had nothing else to do in the day so I had to keep a whole afternoon or mornign free which was very inconvenient, he also made me pick someone else up and swap over in the lesson so they drove me back home meaning a lesson time would usually last 2 hours as I would be drove around by the first person for a while, my lesson would start, I would pick someone up and then they would start there lesson and I would sit in on some of there lesson. (If that makes any sense) My lesson would also be less than the time it should have been and on the journey, he would make me park up at a variety of places such as the corner shop, pet shop, basically, anywhere he wanted to go. I was like his taxi. Whilst waiting for him to finish at these places also ate into my lesson time. He also smoked a pipe, yelled at every given moment if I did the smallest thing wrong, swore at me and said everything he possibly could that was derogatory to me. As you can tell it was a nightmare. 

The tests themselves were horrible. The first test I failed for crossing lanes which in hindsight I probably did do but he grabbed the steering wheel and started shouting at that I was going to hit a car. He then continued to shout at me telling me to calm down which inevitably made me even more nervous to the point I nearly started crying in my driving test. (Not to scare anyone!) My second test I was incredibly nervous as I created so much pressure on myself and that just made me mess up.

Then I swapped to my most recent instructor who claimed a quick pass which I very much needed. At this point I didn't know if it was the instructor, lack of experience or nerves that were making me fail the last two tests. At this point, I felt I was a very capable, confident driver so didn't understand why I kept failing. So my lessons were going great, I did my third test - failed, fourth test - failed and I started to give up. I had no idea how I was going to stop my nerves making me mess up but today I did my fifth (i know it sounds a lot!) and it was great. I definitely think the new test is a lot easier but also I got a minor for something I got a major for last time which I also think proves that it really depends who you get on the day. 

I am so glad I stuck at it even though it seemed nearly impossible and shows determination pays off.

It always seem's impossible until it's done.


Sunday, 4 February 2018

February Goals

I don't know about anyone else but for me, January has felt like the longest month ever, I have done so many things to get myself back on track after the Christmas blues hit in - even though Christmas feels like a million years ago now - I have really been working on myself helping to get more confident, reduce my anxiety and create some big plans for 2018 which I definitely hope continues throughout the year. I started setting myself monthly goals in December and so far they have really been working out to help me stay organised as I use them as a to-do list so its very satisfactory when I know I have achieved one no matter how big or small they are.

Keep on top of e-mails and phone calls

I am that person who's inbox has to reach about 100 email's before I even think about looking at them as I just forget but then I feel overwhelmed with having to read so many. With phone calls, I just put them off so much as I never know what to say and stumble over my words - anyone relate? But with the nature of my work and blog I really really need to get on top of this. In fact, I'm going to start right after I have written this!

Exercise Daily

In no way am I going to be jumping to the gym every day as that just isn't my thing but light exercise is so important and I have really been trying to put it into my daily routine. I recently bought a weighted hula hoop and it is by far my favourite thing at the moment. 20 minutes using that a day is great for your abs but also I find it so fun! I also throw in a few squats, sit-ups and a walk which suits me perfectly as I don't go for intense workouts. 

Spend less money

Recently I have realised I have been spending more and more money on things I don't even realise and as much I want new clothes, endless outings and meals out to enjoy myself I think I need to slightly control myself and start to save half of my monthly income for the future.

Don't wear makeup 7 days a week

This is something I have wanted to do for a while and I am definitely going to start only wearing makeup 6 out of 7 days a week and then as I get more confident and my skin gets clearer maybe only 5 days a week etc. As it is becoming a chore sometimes to apply my makeup as I feel like I have to rather than I want to.

Do things for me

I think I included this in my 2018 goals but I am finding it so so hard! In January I already found I was agreeing to things even though they were seriously negatively affecting me. So February is the month I am going to start to get myself back on track and stay positive and do what I want- in a completely unselfish way of course!

Make more effort with the people who are important to me

As I just said I have been saying yes to things that have seriously made me step backwards with my mental health leading me to not doing things I want to so this month I am going to start making more effort with the people I sometimes take for granted specifically my grandparents and a couple of friends I know I haven't really seen recently. 

Improve this blog

You might or might not have noticed I have my own domain of instead of being but there are some big changes coming very soon so keep your eyes peeled!

What are your February Goals?