Sunday, 9 September 2018

My Summer 2018!

 As sad as I am to say it, Summer is over. It has flown by but I can say it's been a rollercoaster. My life has completely changed both for the good and the bad but it has also shown me how far I have come as a person. I have achieved things I didn't think would ever happen. 

I left a job that I owe a lot to, from the confidence I made to the brilliant life long friends I made. It also gave me the stepping stone to having the job I always wanted in the place I only dreamt of. I have had amazing experiences through it as you can see from the photos of putting on a show for crowds of over 50,000 people. Everyday has been different and like an adventure. I have got studio experience, and finally the opportunity I always wanted to prove myself and my passion.

My anxiety has been near to non existent - theres of course been moments I have felt on edge and even drained from how much work I have done. I just took a step back, reassessed everything and tried not to get stressed. This summer also marked a year from when I first started to seriously improve my mental health and can safely say that from July 2017 to July 2018 was the best year of my entire life. I fully believe this is because with the improvement of my anxiety I have been able to live my life exactly how I have always wanted. 

My social life was not as much of a priority this summer so there was no holiday for me, but I don't mind as there is plenty of chance in the future for a week away. However, I did make the most of seeing my friends. Every moment I have had outside of work I have made equally special memories with the best of people.

August was not so good, as on the 1st August at 7pm my Grandad passed away. He had been ill for quite a while but it was still a shock. I hadn't planned to visit him in hospital on the day it happened but I just suddenly had the urge to go eventhough I had been told he was getting slightly better - enough to come home. As soon as I got there and saw my nan standign at the bottom of his bed as he struggled to breath I knew somethign bad had happened but I never expected that when I cam eback from gettign everyone coffee I'd be watching him go. The whole month was then a bit of a blur as you can expect. I tried to keep as busy as possible but somethings I just couldn't bring myself to do. My group of friends were so so supportive which did help a lot and I think without them I wouldn't have dealt with it all as well. I read the eulogy at his funeral which I am so proud that I did as I know its what my Grandad would of wanted. 

So, my summer was literally life changing and as I said at the start, both for the good and the bad. I have a whole new perspective on life and can not wait for the future.

As my Grandad was always so encouraging and excited by what ever I did next I want to dedicate this post to him.

♥︎ 

2 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry to hear about your Grandad's passing, I hope you're doing better now!

    Lucy | Forever September

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  2. I'm sorry to hear about your Grandad too. Hope you're OK.

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